So, where do we even start?
It’s been two months since we got the green light on our home study, and let me tell you, it’s been a rollercoaster of emotions. Hence the title of this update – the wait is hard.
Things have been harder than we expected.
We knew this adoption journey wouldn’t be a walk in the park, but boy, it’s harder than we imagined. Maybe it’s the lack of control or just plain old impatience. Whatever it is, it’s A LOT to handle.
… but all good things require hard work, right?
We didn’t prepare for the “no’s”.
Every application we fill out comes with a laundry list of preferences to choose from – gender, race, medical history, you name it. And while we initially thought, “We just want a healthy baby!” we quickly realized that it’s not that simple.
Having to turn down potential matches that don’t feel right for us has been incredibly tough.
Then there’s the waiting game.
We thought things would move quickly for us, given our circumstances. But reality hit hard when paperwork took ages to process, and agencies seemed to move at a snail’s pace. It’s frustrating not knowing when things will finally fall into place.
The unknown is hard.
But deep down, we believe that everything happens in its own time, in the way it’s meant to.
And let’s not forget the daily struggle of living in limbo. Some days are easier than others – when we’re distracted by work or enjoying time with loved ones. But other days, the silence is deafening, and the weight of uncertainty feels unbearable.
….But we hold onto hope, knowing that one day, all this waiting will be worth it!
It’s worth mentioning that our wait HAS NOT been extensive compared to many other families who wait for years. Nonetheless, emotionally, regardless of the duration, it feels like an eternity. Every adoptive couple likely dreams of being that extraordinary success story where they bring a baby home just days after home study approval.
We’re thankful for community
Amidst the chaos, we’ve had a few glimmers of hope. We’ve never prayed so much in our lives, and we’ve never felt so supported by our community. It’s been a lesson in faith, humility, and grace – and we’re grateful for every step of the journey, highs and lows included.
So, thank you for your continued love and encouragement. We’re navigating this wild ride one day at a time, trusting that our miracle is just around the corner.
Much love, Sara + Josh
